Miserable yet Euphoric Life

Yes that life represents me. 私の人生。 I always pondered questions about myself like

  • Why is it that I don’t see money as the top priority?
  • Why is it so hard for me to find a girlfriend?
  • Why is it that I spend so much time on the computer?
  • Why is it I choose free stuffs over commercial? (Everyone know what this means.)
  • Why is my life so idle?

Maybe I can answer some myself, but yet again maybe a third person would give a precise answer.

でもまだ,

I feel euphoric due to the fact that my life is somewhat smooth. Good grades, have friends that doesn’t cause problems, parental love, a computer that brings me all the entertainment, etc.

My life doesn’t seems to have any problems and from my point-of-view usually it’s money which creates a different outcome in life. Since I don’t play much with money and I am getting all the ‘free’ stuff - like downloading games, music, movies, etc, therefore probably this is my punishment.

This paragraph is to answer why I am unable to have a girlfriend, that is what I think of course. One very reason is that I do not have an active lifestyle. Second, usually when I watch romance dramas (I know it’s fantasy.), I feel that to have a loved one with you, problems have to exist, which doesn’t happens on me. I don’t think there’s a third.

I can’t say how good or bad my life is but then again I always do believe that my life has a straight fixed road. I believe in that because there were many and I meant many which not countable by fingers that scenes from my dreams actually became reality. From classrooms to home to friends outing, definitely not something that I would make up.

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